Recently I have often caught myself using the phrase “That’s not real”. Because nothing is.
I suppose this is due to a lot of recent major changes in my life. I’m talking fundamental ones. A new season with a new cast and setting was entered.
To deal with all this – working with the new and accepting that old settings are gone – I developed something. I call it “everything is not real” and if I could do stars on my keyboard around this phrase I would because it is amazing.
“Everything is not real” is a method to deal with things that are far to big to realise and to make you live in the moment. Like the “in-the-end-we-are-all-just-on-a-rock-floating-in-the-universe” people who do things for the plot and tell you that nothing really matters anyway.
Except it’s not that stereotypical and cooler.
To make this more graphic: I recently quit my apartment contract and (just today!) signed a contract for a new apartment. Not only does this mean a change in scenery but I also have to accustom myself to a far smaller space. And pack everything up. And sell stuff. And fine someone new who wants to live in my current apartment. Most of these things I have no control over as I am dependent on other people. In addition to that there are several exams to be taken and lets just say, there cast in my personal life changed drastically. Oh, and there is a new job contract
Therefore, currently nearly every part of my life has changed or is just about to. To deal with this I tell myself that everything is not real for now. When you life in a simulation there is no worst case scenario because that too, would not be real. Do you get it ? It’s like holding your breath for a moment until you have the ability to breathe again.
So at least for me, September won’t be real and if nothing’s real then nothing is cringe, embarrassing or definitive. Let|s go!
P.S. Something to match the mood: